Take Me On The Floor

Mhm, i always seem to find myself in a rut. Meaning..some kind of situation is put in my direction and i collide with it. I guess in this case, i might as well explain.
Well, i have a girlfriend. I dated her once before, actually she was my last girlfriend, her name is Kelly. Something seems different this time, like she actually wants to be with me.. because before, some of the time it seemed like she didn't. Two nights ago, i was at a party for one of my best friends.. it was her 'going away' party because shes going off to college in NY soon. It would've been great, and prob. a little better for me if kelly were there but she wasn't aloud out. Anyway, one of my ex-girlfriends/my first love was there..and she is still a good friend of mine though, her finance/girlfriend broke up with her recently..and she is pretty heartbroken. I wanted to talk to her about it but it was a bit hard considering the fact that we were both drunk and who wants to get emotional when your trying to have fun? I care about this girl, a lot..and i know she feels the same way, i just hope she gets better sooner than later. Even though i have a girlfriend, my ex and i kissed acouple of times. I think im pretty stupid, and i was pretty drunk..but not drunk enough to go into the 5-some orgy that was happening right near me. Yeahh, im pretty smart lol. I know that my ex doesn't feel for me, more than a good friend atleast, in any way and its vis versa but i do feel like things were left unsaid in the past. Who knows.. maybe its better that way? And even if those kisses were just kisses, i still feel bad about it..but i dont know if im going to say anything about it. I know trust is very very good, but sjberhfbejd i dont know. Sorry for another long, pointless blog entry lol.